So..they had a 'refresher' on Diversity in the Workplace and Sexual Harassment.  They said if you feel uncomfortable with someone and you don't feel comfortable confronting them on what they are doing..then you should talk to your manager.

What about those times that random people come up to me while I'm working and have asked me (and I quote) "Why do you gotta look so mean?"  I've told my higher ups and they just laugh it off and pretty much tell me that I'm too sensitive.

It just frustrates me.

 Sometimes...I think I really need to grow my backbone just a little bit more.

I had been looking forward to the possibility of getting off a little early today..just because I'm here helping out.  Well the guy that I'm helping..is leaving 2 hours early because he's "not feeling good."

I've barely seen my boyfriend all week, not gotten any sleepy cuddles or cuddles period for that matter.

Blarg..just blarg

A morning person...

That means I'm fine...so please don't ask me if something's wrong when I've already told you that I'm fine.  It doesn't help that my feet still hurt from these new insoles.

 My doctor says I'm normal (har har) and healthy.  I'm down about 5lbs from last year, which I feel is good considering my work schedule and the fact that I eat more crap than I should.  But I'm working on that...cooking stuff from scratch, no fast food, less soda..etc.  I'm really trying to get away from soda.  Part of the problem is finding something that tastes good, doesn't have a lot of sugar, and that no one else in this house will drink.  I don't like Crystal light and other drink mixes because they usually have artificial sweetner, which I can't drink because it's nasty.

Brian wants to start running, so I think we'll be starting that pretty soon.  I'd really like to start bellydancing again.  I just need to find out what Mecca's schedule is now.

I was just going through my recent past entries and saw the pics of Keira and Kirin.  I need to post new pics of the poochies and kittehs.  Speaking of kittehs...Loki says hi.  He's sitting on my chest whilst I type.

Bedtime now :)

 That my second grade teacher would still be teaching second grade at my elementary school?  Most people would say pretty slim.

But she's still there!  I've been rather curious about a time capsule that was buried when the school first opened back in 1986.  I don't remember when it was supposed to be opened..could be 20 years..could be 50 years.  Anyway..I googled the name and poof!  It has it's own website.  I start scrolling through the staff and I see Miss Cullipher's name and my music teacher, Miss Arsenault is still there too!  One of the art teacher's names sounded familiar but I'd have to ask Mom if she still has my old report cards to be sure.

Part of me wants to email them just to say hi and let them know how much they meant to me, but I feel like they may not remembe who I was.  I'm probably going to do it anyway, because I think more teachers need to know that they are appreciated for the work they did when we were kids.

I want to take a trip back to Virginia Beach..I really do miss it sometimes.  I'd love to see what has changed and what's stayed the same.

I swear...I want to quit.  I'm just glad he doesn't work on my shift, cuz I think I'd kill him.  I don't need that kind of attitude from anyone.  Especially when I'm just looking for information that you might know.  They tell me *I* need to work on my communication skills...I think you need to work on yours.  At least I don't catch an attitude with *everyone* I work with. 

There's gonna be a fight...I can feel it.  And knowing the bullshit that goes on here...I'll be the one the gets in trouble.

 Fuck you Kentucky...

Fuck you.

 I hate being sick..I feel like shite right now.

 Alright, I screwed up, I admit it.  I even went to apologize for getting snippy.  You?  Ignored me and then said I have to walk away.  I was told that you've been upset all week.  I know this, that's why I've gone out of my way to try and be helpful and not piss you off.  You've been nothing but a bitch to me for the last few weeks and I've said nothing.  I don't understand and I'm not going to pretend that I do.

*sigh*

Misery Business ~ Paramore


I'm in the business of misery
Let's take it from the top
She's got a body like an hourglass that's ticking like a clock
It's a matter of time before we all run out
When I thought he was mine she caught him by the mouth.

I waited eight long months
She finally set him free
I told him I couldn't lie he was the only one for me
Two weeks and we'd caught on fire
She's got it out for me
But I wear the biggest smile.


Whoaa I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now
Whoaa it was never my intention to brag
To steal him all away from you now -

But God does it feel so good
'Cause I got him where I want him now
And if you could then you know you would
'Cause God it just feels so..
It just feels so good.

Second chances they don't ever matter, people never change
Once a whore you're nothing more, I'm sorry, that'll never change
And about forgiveness, we're both supposed to have exchanged
I'm sorry honey, but I'm passing up, now look this way!

Well, there's a million other girls who do it just like you
Looking as innocent as possible to get to who
They want and what they like it's easy if you do it right


Well I refuse, I refuse, I refuse!


Whoaa I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now
Whoaa it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now -

But God does it feel so good
'Cause I got him where I want him right now
And if you could then you know you would
'Cause God it just feels so...
It just feels so good.


I watched his wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving you
Just watch my wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving...

Whoaa I never meant to brag, but I got him where I want him now!

Whoaa I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now
Whoaa it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now -

But God does it feel so good
'Cause I got him where I want him now
And if you could then you know you would
'Cause God it just feels so...
It just feels so good.

  to give or provide what is necessary to accomplish a task or satisfy a need; contribute strength or means to; render assistance to; cooperate effectively with; aid; assist: He planned to help me with my work. Let me help you with those packages. 


I was asked to go help some people today.  Then I was told that I need to not help them, but to delegate things that needed to be done.  This was after I was already helping said party.

And apparently I'm supposed to be able to be in 2 places at once.  

ACTIVATE BECKI SUPERPOWERS NAO!

 Happy Birthday Dawn!

 I'm so fucking pissed off right now.

Both of you took last Wednesday off, why did you have to take today?  Cindy..you knew it was my birthday yesterday.  The LEAST you could have done was come in so that I could have taken the day off.  Did you?  No.  

I've got Kevin yelling at me about the damned conveyor because dayshift couldn't get out all their stuff.  I'm way overstaffed and no one gives a shit.  Don't flip out over 5 packages being on the overflow line.  I've seen worse..AND it doesn't help that the stupid conveyor is broken AGAIN!  Wasn't it supposed to be fixed last week gentlemen?

I'm getting so sick of the whining and the bullshit.  You don't want to work with this guy?  Too bad..I need you to work where I put you.  I work everyday with people that I don't want to work with..  SUCK IT UP AND DEAL WITH IT.

I really feel like taking personal time for the rest of the day.  But knowing the retarded managers here..they would say I can't because there isn't anyone else that can run shipping.  Well that's not my fault is it?

 I'm telling you...I work with some of the dumbest smart people I know.

 I want shinies :(

Need moneh for shinies :(

No moneh till next Friday :(

 I don't get it...

I just don't get it..

 HEY


I know that my last entry was about the same thing...but good grief people are rude.

If you say 'excuse me' instead of 'hey', you might get a more cheerful response.

Only 5 days left...unless they do what I'm hearing in the rumour mill...then I'll just die from exhaustion.  I'll have 65 hours under my belt once today is finished..I get one day off..then it's 5 more.

argh

 I believe there are people here at work whose parents forgot to teach them manners.

FYI!!!!

PLEASE AND THANK YOU will get you a lot further in life.

DON'T BE A JERK!

Also, use "exuse me" when you need to get past someone that is in your way.